i hate tis b'day...
destroy by others...
not only u(lee jo hoong) n also others ppl...
on another hand...
thx to those who wish me...
so sorry...
tis b'day i really nt happy...
sorry to those who wish me...
i broke u guys wish...
n 15cents to sms me... sorry...
b'day scolded by others??
b'day hav to c others ppl face??
b'day hav to attend those suck n meaningless class??
b'day hav to b quiet??
b'day also hav 2 stay home??

i jux wan a happy burfday...
jux tat simple n easy...
y cant?!

24hrs got 8 hrs is for sleep...
den only leave 16 hrs...
16hrs got 2 hrs is for preparetion to go out...
den only leave 14hrs...
14hrs got 4hrs is for meal & stay 2gather wif family...
den only leave 10hrs...
10hrs got 2 hrs is for move from a place to another place...
den only leave 8hrs...
8hrs got 6hrs is for attend da class...
den only leave 2hrs...
1hrs for chit-chat wif my frenz...
den only leave another 1 hrs for u...
is it so hard for 2 u tahan me in tat 1 hrs?!

dun scold me
dun make me angry
dun do those stupid things
dun show me da stupid face
is tat so hard??
is me so hard 2 layan?!

den da easy way is...
jux leave me alone...
dun talk dun joke dun peduli me...
jux tat easy...
den 1 hrs wil gone...
i hate u broke my b'day mood...

to my stupid dad n bro...
i jux hav 2 hrs to stay wif both of u...
couldnt u guys jux let me do watever i wan??
do wat also hav 2 under both of ur permission??
cant talk wif me softly??
i born wif my ear...
i can listen well... u know?!
i hate tis b'day!!! i totally nt happy...
except da 28th mid nite part...

ya... again... all tat is my problem... yea i know...
i should date my frenz out 2 hav a sing k o yam cha section...
so tat wont kacau n no need face 3 of u...
i nt need 2 stay home...

finally i hav 2 blame da 1 who make me always stay home again...
so sorry 2 blame u... but in my mind...
tis caused by u... i hav control myself since 5yrs ago...
i sweared i cant b like u... i dun 1 2 b like u...
i try so hard 2 control n lie myself...
until i believe tat i didnt like 2 go out wif frenz...
i didnt like to shopping... i didnt like 2 b like a simple gal...
but i'm wrong...

do u know how much i like 2 shopping??
do u know how much i like 2 b a lala??
do u know how much i hope 2 b a simple gal??
do u know how much u hav affected me??
do u know how many times i cried??
do u know how many times i tel myself nt to hate u but try 2 love u??
do u know all these??
do u know HOW MUCH I HATE U??

u take away all my things
u had taken away my 5 yrs time
u had taken away my freedom
u had taken away my happy
u had taken away my confidence
u had taken away all my chances to b a special edition chong kah sin

i hate my life...
i hate all u guys...
i hate myself...
i hate da world...
i hate all da stupid stuff...
i dun 1 2 cry in my b'day... u know!!!!

yan

another 49minutes to go...
happy & exciting...
duno y n duno wat reason...
now i jux wan to say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YAN BEBE...
^^
now i jux wish to hav a happy n memorable b'day...
couldn't i??

25hrs to my b'day

another 25hrs to my b'day... exciting... but without objective or any so called 'aim'... hornestly... for tis yrs... i didnt hav any expect gift... how 2 tel in english leh?? i didnt demand any present o gift... o even in my mind i dun hav any things tat i really wan... duno y leh... every b'day i wil wait for my expect present... so sad... every yrs i cant receive da thing tat i wan... tis yrs really nt much rasa on my b'day... summore on tat day still need 2 study full day class... how sad is tat?!

erm... in my mind.. i jux wait for tat things... nt cox of b'day la... i jux feel tat wan to get at lease one in my life... i think tat wil b a happy things for me(wen receive it)... duno leh... stil waiting for tat... b'day b'day... y ppl think tat very big stuff geh?? y tis yrs i really tak ada feel on tat geh?? sigh... mayb i know tis yrs wont b any celebration... so no feel gua...

on 29th tat is a full day class... den nite bear hav 2 celebrate ken's b'day wif his frenz... i celebrate wif my family in traditional way-- eat 2gather, da most 'special' de mai add in a cake wif champagne lo... sigh... frenz?? text 2 me with: 'happy b'day' & some wishes lo... den who else?? sigh sigh sigh...

bad PR skill is like tat de lo... who asked me dun hav tat skill?! k la... gud nite everybody... 2molo stil hav a test... haiz... ms.julynn test... gambateh on tat ba... nite...

就快要考试了...
很怕...
却还在玩电脑...
哈哈...
希望今天的试不会太难啦...
各位加油咯...
预祝各位考试顺利咯...
为B努力咯...

genting highland trip - 19/10/09

ytd wen 2 genting d lo... so sad... alots of block thr... early in da morning about 830am darren n i reach kl sentral... 1st thing v saw is... 'next bus 12pm'... omg omg... how how how... quickly cal to nickson n sabrina asked then went to gombak n check 4 da bus ticket... luckily can get 11am de... S & N suggest to hav a b'fast section @ wangsa maju... den v jux stay thr & wait for 11am bus... oh ya... 2 4gt tat gin & her bf also... sum gor was a quite quite person leh... nt talk at all....

so sad... da bus is so lousy... hot air-cond wif slow driving skill... D & me jux fal a slept in da bus... after an hours... yes... finally reach genting highland... wen v reach thr... da whether was so gud... sunny sunny day wif some cold wind... nice... how good is tat, if puchong hav tis temperature... woo...

1st station... first world hotel's washroom... haha... an hours journery & b4 entering to outdoor game ma... hehe... yeah... enter outdoor luh... 1st game 'Rolling Thunder Mine Train'... short but nice to b warm up game... ^^ den follow wif 'Flying Dragon' & 'Cyclone'... nice... while tat a lots of picture capturing thr... nice scenery... after da 3 game... N&D wan 2 play 'Space Shot'... of course S& me nt going 2 play tat... den gin & sum gor also run away... haha... den 4 of us go c ppl play game... erm... somethings like play wif ur luck... i duno da name of it... u wil play it wen thr is a fun fair... throw da ring if u hit da bottle u can get some reward... understand??

10 minutes later... small rain thr... N&D was prayed... cox they stil q-ing up 2 play 'space shot'... of cox finally they get it la... v so lucky de ma... hehe... after tat i asked D to get da bear (jux mentiened 'reward') for me... cox its is really cute... but after wasting 10bucks i stil cant get it... how sad is it... a lots of ppl get it leh... sum gor wasting 8 bucks also cant get it...mayb our skill nt good enuf... so disappointed a... sigh... okok... come back to here... went for next game... 'corkscrew'... yeah... 360 degree... how nice is it... shout al da way... so fish leh... but really scare ma... hehe... so fast... but really nice... haha... wan 2 hav it again de... but all of us alr hungry... tat time alr 3~4pm le...

wen 2 da nearest place... 'oldtown'... haha... y laughing?? cox alr always eat@ kl... now stil wan eat @ genting... but da feel is really different lo... cold whether wif frens... u know how lucky are us?? after v exit da outdoor 5minutes... heavy rain outside... really tat lucky leh... sad to others ppl... cox saw they're runing here & there... wao... it is really cold lo... v cant even c da outdoor leh... can u feel da cold?? den no choice lo... enter to indoor shopping lo... but... nth 2 shop leh... v come here nt for shopping is for da outdoor... our shopping guy get '战利品' wor... hehe... after bout half n hour... v feel tat outside stop rainning alr... sure back to outdoor la... but all of us no feel wanna play liao... cox of da wet n need 2 warm up back... den v decide jux hav a photo capturing section & some kids game... u cant belive tat i shout wen playing da 'Flying Jumbo'... so fish rite?! D la... press da button... da flying jumbo fly up & down wif 'fast speed'(for me its fast) notty D laugh @ me leh... how fish is it...

do u went 2 dinosaurland @ genting?? u know how nice is it?? da scenery is so good... after i get all da photo i upload here... while tat... i kena bully by snake... da staff bring da snake next to me but i didnt realise tat... he called me... shout n run so fast... follow by S, N&D... lol... da shout is really funny... after run away laugh at a side... hahaha... dinosaurland is really nice... if u never been thr b4... must go... really nice... i suggest tat...

woo... a day trip... 10 hrs trip... can write it out in a short post... but u can rmb it all da time... cox travel is really nice & enjoy... when v back... i saw kl night view... u know how nice is it?? really different scenery wif other mountain view... small little light city... den i saw da nice of da night of genting highland... another nice view... so sad tat... i jux enjoy it my self... mr. D get sick liao... fall a sleep thr... take k lu... nice trip... ^^

刚yam完茶回来上完facebook... 是时候update一下我的部落格了... 刚饮完茶回来... 听朋友发泄发泄了一下下... 他应该舒服点了吧?! 这傻婆在感情方面真是这么多年都没变叻... 还是傻傻地爱他的伴侣... 也许这不是傻吧... 只是爱情是盲目的... 爱上了就放不下了... 如果每个人都是这样... 那每个人就会又幸福又甜密的爱情了... 不是吗?! 他只是投资在不适合的人身上而已... 傻婆... 加油啦... 愿你有情人终成眷属吧... 你不是错的... 不要气馁ya... gambateh... 永远都是你的聆听者... ^^

好期待下星期的trip哦... 云顶我来了... 感觉上只有我一个人在兴奋叻... 为什么的?? 是他们都上到sien了吗?! 别这样嘛... =(

happy day

happy day... study life is much much better den working life... went for english class 2day... hehe... happy can c all classmate... enjoy stay 2gather wif classmate...

gossip arround...
joke all da time...
talk none sense...
laugh loudly...
'fight' with frenz...
chit chat sharing da story...
*sweet smile ->enjoying*

wish tis wil nt stop so fast... i jux started 2 enjoy da life... hehe... love everybody... ^^ recently always group wif da same people leh... yi gin, sabrina, nickson... always gila wif them liao... den of cox lovely jess n jojo la... always 'argue'... love it... no forgot tat... i always be wif siow tin n charlie also... haha... look like all wangsa geh?! after stay 2gather is different de la... haha... jkjk... [syok sendiri] talk more wif melissa liao... like 2 talk wif her... cox gila gila also de...

love my life now... hehe... our plan had change... wen to Genting Highland liao... yes... finally our plan on liao... wuhuu... cant wait for tat... another day suddenly canceled class o... so so so happy... now jux depends on us whether wanna stay thr o nt only... yes yes yes... im coming o... wait for me... ^^

女生其实要的很多吗?? 我觉得嘛?? 我会耶… 但是女生要的其实真的很简单啊…

1. 稍微体贴些的男生… 就只要稍微知道女生需要什么吧…

2. 偶尔为女生伤点脑劲…譬如吗?? Erm…去些女生想去的地方; 留意下女生喜欢什么然后悄悄的买给他 ; 为了女生做些D.I.Y的东西(爱心便当?! 随身物?! 为女生学烘蛋糕?!)

[想到都幸福, 但别常做啦, 因为部分的女生是贪心的…^^ 我是其一的…]

3. 不欺骗或隐瞒女生… 10对情侣有7对分手都是因为欺骗和隐瞒… 男生总以为瞒着女生是为他好… 但你知道吗… 女生是最讨厌被骗的… 无论是大事或小事… 骗了就是骗了… 女生不会因为你的解释而算了… 就连一次都不要… 这只是在伤害你的爱侣… 要瞒吗?? 请你瞒他一辈子…

4. 承诺… 不要轻易地说: ‘我答应你’… 答应了就必须要做到… 做不到吗?? 别答应咯… 女生会强迫男生答应… 但男生要知道… 一旦答应了就等于你们之间的法律… 反了法就终身监禁了…

5. 女生不喜欢男生做的事… 男生请尽可能都不要做… 可以吗??

6. 让女生多知道男生的优点… 女生会更爱男生哦… ^^

7. 别让女生对你说: ‘失望了心淡了’… 女生不会轻易的对男生说这些话… 担一旦女生说了… 代表女生真的痛心死心了… 明白吗?? 女生是容易受伤亦容易被感动的…

8. 保护女生为她遮风挡雨… 对女生而言是男生必要的事…

在她伤心流泪时, 让出你的肩旁… 让他在你怀里哭泣, 别追问她发生什么事, 这只会让女生反感…

在她跌倒时, 扶他起来, 为她的痛而慌忙… 在一旁笑吗?! 你死定了…

在她害怕时, 再累也得陪着他…

在她生病时, 身在何方都得回来陪着他, 真得没办法吗?! 打多几通电话慰问… 她被欺负时都得挺身而出, 无论对方多凶狠…

p/s: 爱和疼是两回事… 你爱他但你不疼她= 0… 你不爱他却很疼她也= 0… 明白吗??

2day hav sing k section again... uhhu~~ syok.... enjoy bout it... haha... tis time only 4 ppl going... with a small k room... a lots of tib-bits... 3 mic again... haha... no fighting... sing until puas puas... but throat pain... sing twice a week... really sakit la... but really syok lo... hehe... love it...

i go out at nite again leh... omg... bcum notty liao... dun wish 2 continue with tis... otherwise wil b control by parents... den charm d lo... hehe... duno y tis time mama giv me permission 2 go o... really happy bout it... 19/10/09 wil hav a trip wif frenz again... wao... so many activities nowadays... sorry mom... dun get angry ya... i promise after all tis i wil back to da 'nature'... acc u more...

tsunami n earthquake is arround us... really worry bout it... duno wen wil happen again... duno whr wil kena... really wish 2 stop all tis... human being... pls stop fighting anymore k... love ur life... cox u wil never know wen wil b da end of ur life... save life n love it... love our earth love ourselve... no wars no fighting no nature disaster... i jux wish 2 live with happiness n no worries... god pls bless all of us...

yan

bad mood

early in da morning... feel bad mood d... how?? feel wanna go out earlier to release my unhappy mood... feel wanna cry... feel wanna shout out my bad mood in my heart... but duno y bad mood... think too much?? no confident again?? hate tis mood...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

loud music... stil cant release it... jux request Bear 2 go out earlier... go somewhr else to release it... cant tahan it alr...

p/s : i decide to 4gif Bear again.... but i really affraid 2 get hurt again... so scare bout it... really no next time any more... i swear!! i wil love myself more den love u!!

yan